Writing // An Update

I haven't been posting as much lately for a couple reasons, but mainly because I have been writing for myself. Almost every night after I get ready for bed and before I fall asleep I've been writing down everything that is on my mind. It helps me find out things about how I am feeling more clearly than when everything is swirling about in my mind. I don't worry about it making sense or grammar. I hardly ever backspace or edit. I have gone back and reread some of the entries and I think to myself that it was terrible writing, but it doesn't really matter. It is not for reading after the fact but for the time when I am writing it. I think it will be good to have the writings later on to look back on maybe but that is not the purpose of it for me right now.

I find it very helpful to help me sleep or focus better by clearing out some space in my brain for other things. Every night I look forward to the time I write. By setting aside a certain time of day to think about some topics and know that that time will be productive, I am able to compartmentalize my thoughts and not worry about it all the time.

Since I have also been busy with my classes this semester and any time I do have to write I want to write for myself, I haven't had as much time for this blog. I am practicing being easy on myself and having compassion for myself and not beating myself up about doing less for this blog. Life has different paces and times of activity and it is okay to not do everything. I hate to post a post that says I'll be doing more blog posts soon, but here it is! There will be more post soon. Because I am sure there are just *soooo many readers that are wondering when I will get back into the weekly posting schedule. I employ you all to be easy on yourself and not make yourself feel guilty for not doing things that you used to do when life changes. And then to also be kind to others in the same respect because you have no idea what their lives are like at the moment and you are not the one to decide what they should or should not be doing.

-Abigail